So about Morgen…

In my early teens, I was lying in bed staring out the sliding glass door that separated my bedroom from an atrium in the center of our house. My attention went to a leaf on a tree, and a sensation came to me: I was both in my bed (“here”) and transported to the leaf (“there”), feeling a oneness across space that made both locations possible at once.

This wasn’t the last time I bilocated in this manner.

A few years later, I traveled with my family to Italy, and every night while the rest of the family slept in our hotel room, I would climb up to a large ledge under the bathroom window to look out over the rooftops of Rome. Several months after our trip, I was again lying in bed at home, remembering that spectacular view, when I felt myself transported there. This was more than a vivid sense memory: I was there on that ledge, feeling the cool night air on my skin, seeing the city at night, hearing the distant sounds of the occasional car, so present to it that I didn’t want to open my eyes and break the spell of this astral projection.

Math was always my favorite subject in high school, so I arrived at Yale University on track to major in it. The school had placed me in the most advanced class you could take as a freshman: Linear Algebra and Multivariable Calculus. I walked into the classroom, took one look at the professor, and immediately knew he hated his job.

It was as if someone had turned off a lightswitch.

This was the first and last math class I took in college, and I eventually moved on to other academic topics. But before leaving the math track for good, as the semester was nearing its end, the professor was unable to make it to a session, and delegated the class to a teaching assistant. It was a relief to see someone who enjoyed the topic. It also didn’t hurt that he was easy on the eyes.

The TA was discussing set theory, and had drawn a large circle and some dots on the chalkboard to demonstrate open and closed sets. He scribbled an equation on the board, set down his chalk, and turned to face us.

“Do you know what this is?”

He was clearly excited about this equation. I was on the edge of my seat.

“This is mathematical proof of God.”

Something came over me. I’d been raised in an agnostic home, so “God” wasn’t a word I was accustomed to hearing. I felt a wave of energy pass through me, and it seemed to land in the depths of my heart and gut. I had goosebumps on my arms.

I was so deeply moved by this moment, that when I graduated, I embarked on the path of spiritual study, and immersed myself in the ultimate open set: the Unified Field.

I’ve always had an impulse to balance left and right brain, before I even knew what that was about: A focus on math balanced by theater studies in high school; technology paired with theater, intuitive development, and other spiritual studies throughout my corporate professional years. At one point, I recognized that right brain creativity was wired into how I approached my tech projects.

This realization surprised me.

Rather than doing a lot of pre-planning, with diagrams, flowcharts, object design, and the like, I had a way of feeling into my programming. My creative thoughts seemed to channel down through my hands and fingers into the keyboard, and at some point in the process, the download would happen: that whole-brain “aha” moment, when the gestalt of the project would become clear. This often prompted some rapid reorganization of my programming, and then I’d be off and running with the project.

While some in my industry might have found this to be less efficient than doing pre-programming design, my way was in alignment with my clairsentient and claircognizant nature: First I feel, then I know.

Early in my public speaking experience, I found myself very comfortable speaking from the stage, yet excruciatingly uncomfortable circulating and chatting with people when my talk was over. For one engagement in particular, I confidently participated on a money mindset panel for a chamber of commerce meeting, but after the session ended, I immediately fled the premises in terror!

On the day I met my Soul, I settled into my meditation practice with the usual twitchiness: setting just the right volume for my favorite meditation music, finding the perfect angle for my back and hips on the yoga mat, positioning the quartz crystal below my navel. The house and neighborhood were blissfully quiet, perfect for a long, luxurious journey into my daily shamanic clearing.

Having settled, I’d barely closed my eyes when a vision came roaring into the deep black behind my eyelids: a hand and forearm made of light. I gasped, knowing immediately that this was no figment of my imagination. This image was clearly sent to me, and the sender wanted me to be fully aware of that. I was riveted.

My eyes still closed, I watched the hand pulsating with electric white energy, the pulses traveling in waves up the forearm, then around the perimeter of hand and arm. It was a living image of how I imagined an etheric blueprint to be.

I continued to watch, mesmerized.

In my mind’s eye, the hand slowly began to move, arching down over the crystal on my navel, then hovering immediately above it. It paused, then touched the crystal. Incredibly, I felt the physical crystal begin to buzz and pulsate. How was this possible?

Out loud, I said “YES!”

The hand began streaming a wave of energy that quickly accelerated in strength, coursing through me until I was radiating like a blazing star from this point of contact below my navel. The energy became so strong that I wondered if it had reached the maximum intensity my body could withstand, while still remaining intact as a physical body. As if hearing my thoughts, the energy level held consistently at that intensity for what felt like 15 minutes, then gradually decreased until it was gone. I stood up, and found myself in a deeply altered state that persisted for the next 12 hours, until it gradually faded to a normal waking state.

The next three days continued this journey. Each day, immediately after closing my eyes to meditate, I’d launch into a vivid, kinesthetic experience of another dimension of spirit – being unmistakably touched by angels, uniting with everything around me in the liquified field of Divine Energy, and traveling within to see and feel my inner universe, the infinite space between my cells. 

I met my Soul and my Guardian Angels in this way, with the aid of a powerful and conscious ally.

A crystal.

Although I’ve had some pretty dramatic experiences in the spiritual arena (I describe one above), they don’t happen often. Decades have elapsed between each of these jaw-dropping events, and that’s no accident. The spiritual realm is, after all, a subtle realm, and it’s in the subtleties of life that Grace can happen.

Case in point: In the days of yore, back when we had CDs, I put on a Krishna Das album one evening, one that is entirely dedicated to a hymn to Hanuman, the monkey god. Not being familiar with the gods of the Hindu pantheon at the time, I was staring at the CD cover, its vivid rendition of a face that merged man and monkey staring back at me. I’ll confess I was perplexed, and thought to myself, “I don’t know if I can get into a monkey god. What is this about?” I went into the kitchen as the wonderful music played, and was halfway into washing the dishes when I suddenly felt a presence come into the room. The air pressure changed so dramatically that I momentarily stopped what I was doing, feeling a delicious thickness around me that I can only describe as Sublime Love. I now thought to myself, “Well hello, Hanuman.”

I was experiencing pure Grace. While doing the dishes.

• Crystal Initiate – Crystalis Institute
• Foundations Biofield Tuning – Eileen Day McKusick
• Remote Healing – Sue Morter Institute
• Energy Codes – Sue Morter Institute
• LifeForce Energy Healing Level V – Deborah King
• Crystal Energetics – Judith Lukomski
• Career Coaching – Career Coach Institute
• CranioSacral Therapy – Upledger Institute
• Multiple Healing Modalities – Institute of Psycho-Structural Balancing
• Toltec Shamanism Apprenticeship – don Miguel Ruiz
• Native American Shamanism Apprenticeship – Lyn Starflyer
• The Sedona Method – Sedona Institute
• Coaching from Spirit

• California Employment Development Department
• From Dysfunction to Fun Summit
• Creativity & Wellness Summit
• Angels, Prosperity and You! Summit
• BlogTalkRadio (host of Angelic Airwaves)
• Holistic Chamber of Commerce
• Conejo Valley Business Club
• Spirited Women’s Club
• Ventura Spiritual Women’s Meetup

• Yale University: BA Theater Studies, Magna Cum Laude
• Private training in public speaking, acting, writing